Over That Rainbow is a personal blog where I share my experiences as a survivor of narcissistic abuse and my journey towards healing.
To protect my identity, I write under a pseudonym and all names have been changed.
Narcissistic abuse is one of the most insidious forms of abuse. It is all pervasive, often performed very covertly and, therefore, difficult (if not impossible) to explain to others and report to authorities, unless physical harm is also present. Any and all kinds of abuse are horrible, but unlike the well known domestic violence that results in physical evidence of the abuse, the majority of the damage inflicted through narcissistic abuse leaves severe emotional and psychological scars, that are equally damaging and painful, however invisible to the outside world. Additionally, victims themselves often can’t make sense of what is happening to them, until either they awaken to the truth of their experience or are so intensely abused, they feel forced to find a way out of the relationship and seek help.
In either case, victims feel lost, confused, alone, isolated, controlled, fearful, imprisoned, held hostage. Being exposed to extended narcissistic abuse causes a myriad of physical, emotional and psychological consequences, possibly leading up to different types of impairment. The pervasiveness of narcissistic abuse is such, that victims find themselves dealing with damage caused to all areas of their lives: personal, social, financial, professional, spiritual, physical, emotional, psychological, as well as relational – to include family relationships. Survivors often experience CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Depression and anxiety disorders can also result from narcissistic abuse.
My aim with this blog is to share my personal experiences and knowledge, both as part of my healing process and as a way to add my voice to the choir to help awaken, educate, empower, connect with and assist other victims. I am not an expert, psychologist or life coach; I’m learning as I go. I am a survivor. And this is my story.
Through this experience I found God again. He saved my life, perhaps so that I could now do this work. May He guide me on this path of healing and helping others.
New to narcissistic abuse and confused about the terminology? Check the Glossary.